Long time no write! I'm finally back from the most awful surgery of all time™. I don't remember the first 2 weeks after it, and quite honestly I've only slept 10 nights uninterrupted in the last 49 days. The good news is my surgery is a modern miracle of science and my 60" of incisions are healing up like a champ although swelling remains a major problem. I start Physical Therapy today, thus may spend tonight in the land of Nopantistan due to swelling. It's possible I'll lie belly down on a slab of ice like slide around like a penguin, but with my laptop so I can finish my paper.

Well, back on topic, I'm working on my "Technical Paper" and have been. It is due on Friday. I was stuck, stuck, stuck. My boyfriend helped me identify the problem by talking it out with me. The problem is, per the usual, I think I am a unique and special butterfly. Because I have the charisma in person, I don't feel I should be required to dig mud in the trenches with everyone else. I call it "pretty girl syndrome" and it's shameful. Yes, in addition to the surgery, I was having an arrogance problem.

Me: I don't want to write a scientific paper! I never did. My presentation kicks butt! All of the people who saw it (both teams) joined us for the next test exercise! Can't they see that Collaboration has little to do with making my paper boring? I feel like they are trying to limit creativity. Why must all square pegs go into round holes? My paper is going to be boring and dull and changing it this way is not going to make the presentation better. Besides, I feel like crap, they don't like it, I'm gonna withdraw it, they are going to kick me out of their conference anyhow.

Craig: Listen to you! You have a great idea. You have all of the talent and passion. They ACCEPTED and like your idea and here you are flipping a bird to proper scientific methodology! If you really are too immature to write your paper out in proper form, you don't deserve to give a presentation. You are smarter than this. If you didn't have an attitude problem this paper would be done. I watch you write PAGES every day. Yet you procrastinate because you are too arrogant to put your idea into scientific format?


Ummm. One thing about that boyfriend of mine. He can read me like a book. I already have a new outline and am writing my little fingers off. A little humility and respect for science isn't too much to ask, even IF it makes me feel hostile and bored.

Outline, Introduction, Title Page, and Conclusion are finished. Now on to the meat and "figures".